this is the crap that needs to be cut

the first day alone with peanut (i mean like really alone dev was at work no one came over) was kinda scary i kept thinking am i doing everything right should she sleep this long should i wake her up to eat (yeah i know now if shes not awake dont wake her) i also remember talking to our dog beastmaster i know she wont talk but she is pretty much one of my bestest friends, it may sound dumb to some but shes my first baby i got her as an early birthday present a month after we were first married and i loved her the moment  met her i knew she was my dog. and she is the best dog (in my opinion) she laid next to me all through bed rest, she is excited to see me when ever i walk through the door, she even gained weight with me throughout my pregnancy. now if that isnt sacrifice i dont know what is. beastie is very protective of peanut, she cries when peanut cries, she loves just sitting by her shes always trying to be as close as she can to peanut. even the other day she tried to play catch with her she went and got her toy and brought it back and put the toy in peanuts hand then nudged her hand it was hilarious, i guess she thought it was time to teach peanut to play catch.

i know every parent thinks their kid is the smartest, so being peanuts mom she is the smartest to me, i also think she is judgmental i know shes not but sometimes the way she looks at me i think shes judging me, she gets this face of like oh really? it mostly happens when i talk to her in a child like tone, i first noticed it when she was about two weeks i would ask her if she was hungry or something like that she would then give me this why are you asking like that, thats not your real voice cut the crap, so i did. as soon as i started talking to her normally the more she enjoyed it, i will say one thing though i am offended at the fact she lets everyone else talk to her like that she even gets excited when others do it, but not mom.

a few weeks later dev was about to change peanut she started to cry and wail and get really upset he sat her down on our bed and held up a clean diaper and said im just gonna change your diaper its okay baby, to which she looked at him and said "o" then quieted down, dev immediately looked at me and said did you hear that? she also likes to make sounds that sound like yeah and hmmm but o seems to be her favorite.