oh crap! we have to take care of her now?

the first day home was a blur. all i remember is driving home and stopping to get chick-fil-a in the drive thru for lunch. the whole ride home all i could thing is oh crap were on our own now we have to take care of her. (cause to be honest i hated her being in the nicu but it was nice knowing she had the best care from the nicest nurses and to not worry even though i worried and didnt sleep)

the first few days went by so fast i was really sore and pretty much exhausted i am so thankful for everyone that came over and helped and just visited i was also thankful my husband was with me. again no one tells you about the hard part of children its fun and cute but as fun and cute as peanut is she is kinda overwhelming at times.

nine days after i had her i had a glitch we left peanut with my parents and went to the e.r. after 2 hours of waiting and thinking i was dying and never going to see peanut again. we found out i had a seroma in my incision (its a build up of fluid, its not infection its just not good either) so they had to pack it then i had to see my dr the next day. and i did, he opened my incision and that day we found out dev would have to pack it for me twice a day until it healed oh another tidbit they dont numb you when they do any of this and it was the worst pain of my life). gross i know trust me it was me it was happening to i can just imagine how bad it was for dev. i guess i have to realize Ive definitely got a keeper.

ladies you know a man loves you when he will perform a medical procedure on you twice a day and still tell you he finds you attractive. (i know im lucky). the next week dev took a day off to help me and my mom came over at night. my mother in law also came one day and brought me lunch and fed peanut while i ate and cleaned my kitchen it was soooo nice. i am so thankful for everyone that helped me those first days it was very helpful and it made it less lonely cause when you have a baby you feel lonely even though you are never alone!!